Me

I used to be a lot of things.

I used to be really super duper majorly fat. Like 5'2'' and 300 pounds. And I used to be a diabetic. I used to be really sad and hopeless and unhappy. 

Then I decided I was done being those things. I lost weight and became not so fat.  And then I became a runner. 

I loved being a not-so-fat runner.  Loved it. 

Running was amazing. It showed me my power. 

I loved being a runner.  I felt I was part of this elite club and everything about it gave me joy, from the people I met to the gear that came with it. 

I also loved being not-so-fat. Having a body that could easy move was a new sensation for me. Not being out of breath throughout the day was fantastic. Being able to walk into any store and find clothes to fit my body was the best.

My worst nightmare happened and I got injured.  And I didn't handle it right. Suddenly I wasn't a runner...and I wasn't not-so-fat...now I was a sorta fat non-runner. Which is not so fun.

Then I got pregnant. Which is the most exciting happy thing in the world.  But then I just kept getting fatter. And now my blood sugar is high.

And I am freaking out and I feel sad and hopeless and unhappy. I decided I am done being those things.